20/1/07

// feeling :: full
// prayer for :: tmr's SA

I love tea..

Okay tmr supposed to hav some Sentosa outing at 10am. But I have SA at 1330. I duno if Mr Chris wants me to go after that -.- I also dun feel like going. hahaha mayb I can try to get myself out of it..

I went to work today. So far...I just talked to Mr Chris and all tt. Then I went for class.

I came to church with the word irritated stamped over my forehead. I duno why.

But. I'm not proud of myself today. Thruout svc, all that was on my mind was work. I didnt even sing the songs. All I did was think bitterly about objection. I juz stood there and cried for my work. I was crying for spiritual fullness, spiritual peace, supernatural understanding and support.

I was bitter thruout svc and BS..it was only until after BS that I loosened up.

And I realised that I've been in office too much. I'm going ard calling ppl Mr __ or Ms __ and shaking their hands.

Okie...tmr have SA at my grandma's place. I duno how to get there -.-

Wednesday got another. Thanks to Michael. I'm meeting him and his mom. Hopefully I can help him also cuz always see him so tired all tt.

I'm reminded of my uncle. That time he came up to my office. I wanted to present to him but he was in a hurry. At first I was frustrated because I couldnt close the deal. My first rejection.

Then my manager...came up to me and told me this: "he looks very weak. He has heart problem and spinal problem. He perspired so much just now. I understand why you called him to come. I also want to help him. Get him to come down again soon."

With those few sentences....he moved me to tears.

I felt ashamed. I kept thinking of selling and making money and promotion. I didnt think about benefitting and helping him. If I could..I would've bought one sleeping system for him straight away.

So ashamed. I've been having the wrong mindset of making money only.

Yare yare ah Michelle.....

Lookin forward to BM..this is how I learn anyway.


Mr Michael I'm waiting for you to hit BM! Better hit before me.